What do you think?

If you invite someone to a location for a visit and to explore that location on many occasions always to be met with objections or reasons why that person can't visit, would that disappoint you? If the same person invited you to whatever place he/she is in to hang out or explore in one way or another and even though your requests to have that person visit were refused you still go to that person, would you feel like you were being used or were on the short end of a one sided relationship? If that same person was found at the exact place you offered many times to show at the singular simple asking of another, how would that make you feel? Yes there is some jealousy in there but it's more complex. Even without the jealousy your heart would sink as the whole string of events would leave you feeling inferior to the other individual and to the singularly inviting person. If not inferior then at least infuriated. The places you find to explore or at which to hang out are not any less important then the places anyone else finds. It all stems from how others perceive you. If the above is true then that person doesn't think too highly of you regardless of how he/she says.

Now the arguments to this that may arise would be, perhaps the individual is busy. That could be, but a greater frequency of refusing to come to you lessens the chances and believability that the person is truely busy each and every time. The person could be busy with someone else. True, that is very likely, but how could that person uphold being so enamored with you while refusing to visit you at every turn even in the chance of being always busy. If the said person is enamored with you then he/she should be willing to spend time with you even without those whom he/she is also enamored.

This is a rant, it is my rant, comment as you see fit but I will not change it.

Let's try this.

As many of you may know I am in school in RL questing for a degree in English, writing. I prefer creative writing and I will share some stories here for anyone who wishes to see them. There will be one such story here. Just let me know what you think, or don't, at least let me know you are viewing this. PS: a shameless plug: My shops in Caledon will have some new merchandise after this semester is over.

Strange Code

Explosions shook the battered old brick building that first sergeant Peters and his men were using as a hideout. The occasional corporal or private peeked around the corner, sometimes popping off a rifle blast or two at the encroaching German threat only to turn back belt out the Panzer’s location over the sound of the incessant shelling. Over all of this the field radio beside the first sergeant crackled as a voice sputtered to come through.
“The… Peered… Broken…Pane, over!” cracked the voice in the radio like a slow record player on a locomotive. Peters picked up the radio and sat it in his lap, brought his lit cigarette to his lips and took a deep drag before picking up the receiver.
“Hey! Whoever you are, stop mouthin’ off in the radio! We’re gettin’ shelled pretty bad out here and would appreciate if you would send that air support you promised!” yelled the first sergeant, his cigarette dangling from his lips.
The dust and debris scattered all about the cracked floor beneath the soldiers jumped up then fell back down at a large explosion that toppled the building across the rubble filled French street from the men and fell again in nearly the same arrangement
“The rat peered through … pane! Over!” the voice came through a bit stronger.
“Whathafucks that supposed to mean?” Peters yells into the receiver.
“Moxie, Dimples, Jackson, Alowitz, go get that canister Jackson left out there!” Peters commands the four soldiers who jump up and make a crouched dash for cover.
“The rat peered through the broken window pane, over!” The voice came through so clear the first sergeant could hear the British accent laced within it. Peters just blinked and looked around himself. He turned to look out of the hole next to his head and saw the soft glint of broken class on the front of the menacing giant creaking ever closer to him and his men.
“The tank? Over!” he yelled into the receiver
“Whot? Take it out of you can, but... ahem... the rat peered through the broken window pane, over” came the British voice. He shrugged and stood upright, setting the radio down and jerking the long-rifle off of the downed Nazi sniper laying amidst the dust on the old wooden floor.
Peters shoved the business end of the sniper’s rifle out of the rocky hole, lined up the marks on the rifle with the shattered glass on the giant green beast and pressed back the trigger. He didn’t hear the shot but the immediate red spray from the beast was enough evidence. His heart jumped and he plunged three more shots into the beast. A loud hiss echoed through the streets as the Panzer trembled to a stop. The top hatch boomed open and two shaken Nazi soldiers climbed out in time to become quick targets. Peter’s men had gathered the canister and cheered when the panzer and its crew were finally stopped. Nothing more was heard out of the British voice through the radio.

Alright, a test

If anyone out there on earth is reading this please let me know, if enough of you are seeing what i'm posting I will do what I can to keep it up. If you aren't reading this then you aren't seeing this and this sentence is pointless. Happy Holidays to all of you.

It has been a while

Okay, it's been a while since I've posted anything about my SL self. Honestly there is nothing to report. I have two shops, one in Caledon, the other in Caledon Cay, both are on parcel number 1. Hell people.. i have no idea what to say here :p

Okay, I lied in the previous post.

This post isn't a happy one. Same individual as last posts. Attempts to explain my care for the person or explaining a situation ended in another angry encounter. I know she's going through stressful times. As she made very clear, I don't understand them. But do I need to to care? I don't believe so. Again it is her life. Problems or not they are hers. I will not again try to take them in, for it only seems to make this person very angry.

For the record, I do not lack compassion, I lack patience for being told I'm wrong.

Readers, please know that things withining this post are things that have effected me deeply. If that isn't good enough for SL experiences, then I'm sorry. Enough, time to clear my heart and mind of this whole issue.

A Night of Drama (conclusion)

I am going to simply say, that the drama of the post before has been subtractivly resolved. Anyone's problems are their own, if such a problem is with me, then come make it my problem. Share bits of your life with me, I will hold them in dearest discression with feeling and respect. If for more then that is wished, or you don't trust that i respect or honor what you say, nor our friendship, then don't tell me such things, or don't friend me. It may sound selfish, but if you won't allow me to help you, then please make my life easier by not filling my already sensitive heart with your life issues if you aren't going to trust my respect on them.

Anyway, enough said, hopefully a happy note to come later.

A Night of Drama

This evening within Caledon I occupied myself in conversation that seemed to spin into a telling of bad things that happened within our lives. I won't go into details about the bad things shared with me out of respect, but several times within the conversation the individual to whom i was speaking seemed to wish for a responce. It seemed a specific responce was required. I was unable to guage what responce was expected, nor that a responce we needed, so I stayed silent through her telling. All in all it seemed to be an ordinary conversation with several heartfelt moments. There was mention of my saying something that hurt my fellow chatter, although i'm not quite clear of what that could be. Perhaps it was the mention of my suspecting kids in the very recent break in of my car in RL. I have nothing against children of any age, race, or sex. But who breaks a doorlock on an automobile only to steal two CD's and a half pack of cigarettes? If this wasn't the painful comment then I am clueless. I am sorry for having hurt my partner in conversing, but I am not sorry for being clueless about it. I am not a mind reader, I never have been nor have I any plans to be a mind reader. My entire conversation was not in the intention to cause emotional pain, more to share information and personal history. Confusing moment number 2 happened just before my sign off from SL this evening. When the individual to whom i was chatting made reference to waiting for an answer. A question was not asked! Again I was oblivious.

Please, fellow occupants of Earth, it is necessary to explain things from time to time. Being subtle is good in seduction and sales, not in ordinary conversation.

I am now babbling, goodnight all.

Hello All!

This is my first post to my first blog ever in history, and guess what, it's for my experiences in Second Life. Now this isn't to say rants won't be placed here about things not related to SL, but SL will be the primary focus.

I am a builder in Second Life propigating shops within the group of sims known as the Independant State of Caledon. I have my main shop in Caledon Cay, parcel 1.